Pick up as you go

After my closest friend spilled our little secret, I’ve given it a thought and I concluded, what the heck? What if mom knows it now?  I have changed my old ways. Everyone makes mistakes and I am an adult now.  It’s just that my mom is really a father and a mother to me, literally.  Sometimes, ok, most of the time, she was more of a fatherly figure to me, maybe because she thought I need a father presence. But I’ll still go home this weekend and I know she’ll understand.

Now at work, I think someone’s also trying to play games. I heard whisperings of me being demoted and I don’t know now who to trust my thoughts.  I now FULLY realize we have no one to trust but ourselves.

Hi to you all, so I’m feeling much better now as my wife and I had just returned from the doctor. If you have been reading lately, you would see what happened to my wife a few days ago where she had some bleeding. I really thought it was going to be the end of our child, but thank heavens that the baby’s heart rate has improved since then. There are miracles waiting to happen.

On that note, I feel really good that I invited some friends over to have dinner at my house. I had the best time because my best friend from Glasgow came over with some good news. His wife is also pregnant and it just felt great to have someone to talk to these things about. We have really changed since our college days wherein we didn’t care about anything else but ourselves.

Now times have changed and things are really new. So new I’m still starting to get used to them. Even though I know it would be a hard thing to pull off – I even think it would take years.

Work is doing fine, my clients from 2 years ago who went for a marriage counseling are now doing so much better. The husband who has gone to real anger management has improved greatly. His wife tells me that he knows how to handle himself. People do change you know, it just takes a lot of patience and with that usually comes from when you love a person.

On the other hand, I have dealt with a new client who is suffering from domestic violence. The husband is now with the police, but what more worried about is her mental health. We shall see in the next couple of sessions. I hope therapy helps her.

I remember the time I was being bothered by my folks about the so-called career path I wanted to take. My late father was a great engineer, and had left a good reputation and name in the field that made him one of the best. It was like I had to take care of being the next engineer in the family but then I had other things in mind.

This was the part where I knew that I couldn’t just always base it on what other people thought. One is that its my life, regardless of what my mother might think, or everyone who saw me as the one who would pick up after where my dad had left off still did not seem to be enough reason for me to give up my dreams.

I think it really is important to know what you want and then do everything to get it. At present I do not feel any sort of regret, not one inch, and I kept thinking if I had listened to what other people thought, then I’d most likely be really miserable as we speak. Now I have a great wife who is going to give birth soon to our first born, reaping the benefits of this dream. I really wouldn’t have wanted it any other way.